blog postssss

I just wanna be paid to write

I have been having issues in regards to creating. I barely feel that writing excitement anymore– especially with the story I have been working on since like 2014. I love her but I have been working on her so much that I’ve started to get detached from the story. I have been trying to get into other projects to hopefully get me back into the flow of creating and getting back into that place of joy with my writing. There was a point where I saw a story in everything I do and now I feel like that well is…

Keep reading

in my spare time

I feel like the last two posts I’ve written were really heavy so for a litter post, I want to share what my favorite pieces of media to enjoy in my spare time. I usually do posts about the books or tv shows I’ve enjoyed but this time, I will be sharing my favorite podcasts, YouTubers and webtoons! Favorite YouTubers: Samantha Maria: lifestyle| fashion| travel I have been watching her videos for close to a decade. She is the content creator I aspire to be, she shares her life in very tactful ways and gives enough info to give advice…

Keep reading

the low maintenance friend.

As I am embracing my glow up era, one thing has been coming up over and over again Actually, it has been a reoccurring thought since the pandemic and that is that I have been living my life as the low-maintenance friend.  I have been the friend that will go with the flow, cry alone in my room and then be smily and cracking jokes for friends like 30 minutes after a breakdown. I never wanted to dominate the attention because I know people are going through things and I didn’t want my stuff to get in the way of…

Keep reading

✨it’s time for a glow up✨

Hello all, I have spent the past few years trying to put myself back in order. Astrologers have said Capricorns have been going through it and I can confirm. I feel like I have been taking hit after hit and all while still living in a space that constantly brings so much stress and pain. People have said that you cant heal where you’ve been hurt and that has stuck with me. While staying in this house, I often have flashes of memories that bring me right back to an old and vulnerable place. I recently had a moment where…

Keep reading

my love of romance ❤

hey, it’s been a while but i am back! i hope you’re doing well, bestie! lately, i have been sooooo in love with romance books. i was in one of my worst reading slumps for maybe a month but then i started reading romance and i was… smitten. i wanted to share with you guys some of the books i fell in love with this year. these are books i loved and definitely plan on rereading. if you’d like to fall in love with love, i recommend you pick up a copy of these books… okay? let us begin! All…

Keep reading


Just like the rest of y’all, these past couple of years has been stesssfuuullll. But I am trying to get things back together and get consistent with the things I enjoy again. I really missed blogging and making YouTube videos but I’ve felt this intense block. I felt like I had nothing interesting to say and that no one even cares about what I shared but now… I no longer give a shit because I really like making content. I love chatting about things that come to mind and so I am back with a vengeance. Now allow me to…

Keep reading

my favorite writing resources 

I am not a taught writer and so sometimes i feel like i’m lacking. I wonder if i’m writing a scene using the right amount of emotion or care and so i spend a stupid amount of time devouring resources to give me a better One stop for writers is an amazing resource because it gives you information on emotions and settings. it describes the ways your characters would react in certain circumstances. it is by far my favorite writing resource (i plan on doing a give. away soon for this subscription) Toni Adeyemi created a site with so…

Keep reading

NaNoWriMo 2021

Hello it has been a minute since ive written but this year has been… exhausting. Im currently listening to Adele’s new album and being cured of all stresses and insecurities. im waiting until its a little later for me to really get into my feelings and drink some wine while crying to this freaking album. To be Loved actually had me sobbing earlier today. this woman has crack in her voice and we are all addicted. okay, now that im done with that for now, lets get to what i came here for. this year, i participated in nanowrimo with…

Keep reading

The ‘Am I A Lesbian?’ Masterdoc is amazing.

Back in 2018, I often found myself swooning over garbage men and pretending like their horrible behavior was amazing. Though I identified as bisexual, I was still too afraid to date women. I mean, I still am. Approaching or asking out a woman or non-binary person feel scarier than asking out a man. I used to tie my worth to whether or not a man liked me (trust me, admitting it now is kind of embarrassing.) I basked in male attention, even when it was toxic and horrible and all of my best friends reminded me over and over how…

Keep reading

I think of love as such a tentative thing.

I think of love as such a tentative thing. I think that if I get close If I try and touch it,  If I hold it in my hand, it will break Crumble Burn Disappear. The moments when I feel like I could love I could be loved I hesitate I feel the crumble.  I feel the burn. I feel the break. So much so I refuse to touch it I can’t get near it I am so scared that it will crumble and break Loving is scary And so far It is so much easier to love one-sided The…

Keep reading

I write stuff about gay nerds. I hope you like it. im currently working on a podcast, a book and moving. pray for me.

%d bloggers like this: